Well how should I start this? I have a lot of struggles when it comes to moving forward. I am very ambiguous when it comes to me and my future. I have ideas on what I want to be but I don’t want to disappoint anyone when people ask what I want to be, what I want to have a career as. I go with the flow a lot; as long as this takes me here I will do it. Never really thinking about how it will turn out or what can come of it. Never want to do the most optimum things for myself. I'm very good at squelching what I have to do. For example, I just like knowing what I need to pass a class and just do that never go overboard. Just do the minimal. It works out gets me through school. Especially if it’s a class or subject I don’t like. I do this with a lot of stuff as well like at work. I just do what will get me paid. You can say I am lazy and it is true but it gets me through things. But it came to bite me hard when I was at Cal State Los Angeles. I went there for a year and can I tell you it is so different from El Camino. People are different. There are more events. It’s bigger and better. But classes get harder teachers are careless about their students. Here it is more like teachers have students and know you name but all professors over there, well not all but most, just see a dollar sign over peoples head. And what is want made my laziness sky rocket through the roof. I would just go to class and listen to the lecture and take notes and think. “Oh I want to class I will understand the material”. Boy was I sure totally wrong about that. I end up failing 2 classes I needed to go back to Cal State next year. Then, I was told to go finish those classes at a Community College. This is why I am here and I am very deponent about how it.  I was more of I was not ready for that type of change and doing the minimal was the worst thing you can do there. I will get you behind in classes really quick and it is so hard to play catch up. Not knocking down the university, never, it is a really good feeling being there. Just saying that if you struggle in not going out and asking for help you should start. Or just do the minimal like I do, starting to grow out of that, I will make things way simpler. Hopefully, I can go back to Cal State LA soon. And I hope to find out what I want to have a career in. This semester looks like a stepping stone to that goal.